There's some kind of spelunking joke to be made here
"I feel like I've disappointed my body. In high school, it was, 'I'm so skinny, I need to bulk up,' but now it's, 'I'm still so skinny, but I have a belly.' My insecurities have doubled in that sense. Having skinny arms and a post-college beer belly is far from the muscular male archetype. I talk to my girlfriend sometimes, but with friends, not really. Straight-guy friend groups aren't immediate sources of empathy and consideration, from my experiences. My closest Asian male friend works out a lot and has an incredible body, so sometimes I feel ashamed when I'm around him. He has my ideal body, and as an Asian male, his own masculinity makes me feel inadequate."